let me breathe. let me out. let me be free to roam. to fly. to flitter to the left to the right. up above and down below. let me move at a diagonal once in a while. why can’t you see that you’re limiting me? do you remain oblivious to the exhaustion on my face? you’re holding me back, caging me in. defeated. spiritless. downed. you might as well go ahead and clip my wings. why do you demand my absolute submission? why is it that the exhibition of my love for you must come in the form of obedience in action? am i simply not enough for you?
these were the thoughts of an immature me. when i once believed true freedom was doing as i pleased.my former definition of freedom meant exactly this. consenting to my every emotion and my every need. allowing my desires to override His desires for me. attempting to fulfill psalms 37:4 without Him. freedom meant filling my cup of selfishness to the brim and overflow. little did i know that this rationale of freedom completely contradicted its true form.
through words of revelations that i’ve received from the wisdom of fellow colleagues the Lord redefined this term for me. He brought in new insight and unveiled the very word, freedom. freedom didn’t mean full access to moving to the rhythms of my heart and body. it means that i fully understand that i can do just that BUT possessing the authority to give certain freedoms up for Him and others.
learning how to fly boundlessly within His ancient boundaries. like Jesus, he had the freedom to do as He pleased. He didn’t have to spend time sojourning city to city healing people, feeding people, loving people BUT he chose to give up that freedom for their sake He didn’t have to get on that cross at calvary BUT he chose to give up that freedom too out of obedience and for the freedom of others. true freedom is knowing when to let it go for love’s sake.
so here i am
as one who had lived with no freedom
to one who came out of reckless freedom
to one who has now entered into a life of glorious freedom